What if the one that got away...

Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn’t work out that way.

I honestly don't know. She meant the world to me then. She hurt me, left me, and destroyed me. But I loved her through it all. I still wish I never had to say "my ex wife/my first wife". I never wanted that. She has since apologized for the treatment, we've forgiven one another. But I still don't know, it's been 4+ years. I remarried a year ago. We are happy, have a good life going. My first marriage was rough, but all I ever wanted in the first place, was to be with her forever. I don't know.